What do depressed people look like to those who aren't depressed?
A lot of posts here are discussing how everyone hid their depression.
I’d offer a different perspective…
After New York Yankees Flower Summer Shirt, Yankees Hawaiian Shirt of depression and suicidal ideations… I decided to bring it all out into the light.
I was 33 years old.
Here’s what happened:
- I began openly telling my Yankees Hawaiian Shirt I had depression and wanted to die
- I began confronting my parents about the abuse and neglect I faced as a child
- I began therapy to uncover my deepest hidden shames and sources of sadness
- I began trying medications to balance my emotions and moods, and overcome my addictions (I had a few)
- I changed careers to something low-stress (and low pay), aligned to my interests
The result wasn't pretty…
- Almost all of my New York Yankees Hawaiian And Beach Shirt abandoned me and stopped talking to me… after 5 years, I can count on one hand the friends I have left… I’ve slowly regained a few, but only because they stuck around and kept checking-in on me, and I realized how hard it was for them to see me in pain, so I made a conscious effort not to bring up heavy stuff around them. So we are “friends”, I guess.
- My family banded together and attacked me. First in-person, they disowned me and told me how awful I was and ungrateful and useless and disappointing. Then they took to social media, emails, and phone calls to let me know I had failed as a son and a brother. And then they began calling relatives, and friends, and anybody who would listen to tell them I had lost control of my life and disgraced them. I encountered people over time, who believed I was in rehab or some other lie. I found that every friendship I had associated with my New York Yankees Bronx Bombers All Over Print Summer Shirt was scared of me and thought I was a druggy loser… so I stopped speaking to all my relatives and childhood friends.
- I’ve seen almost a dozen therapists, each one helped me piece together the pictures of my past, and build skills to face the future… not a simple task. I have been very angry and disturbed by the ugliness of my childhood, when examined under the microscope. In the process, I’ve identified depression, bi-polar, BPD, and some physiological issues that all source from my childhood trauma(s).
- I’ve been on several depression and anxiety meds, and one bi-polar medication. Some helped a lot, some didn’t. I can’t complain about them though, they helped me through the loss of most of my social connections, and the horrors of reliving my childhood.
- My new career has made me very poor and dependent on my partner, who earns far more than I do. Still, it aligns to my passions (which I’ve now discovered), and I absolutely love what I do and I’m slowly growing my skills and becoming reputable in the work I was born to do.
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